Departure

A step into the future; But not very far from a confession.

It’s that time .The clock finally ticked. With every 60 minute period held hostage, I never knew it would occur in a flash. I have to accept the fact that the day will finally arrive. I know I am soon to be witnessing a bitter sweet occasion. I can just picture it; The cap and gown, but more so the person filling it with a vast amount of emotions. I can’t even take into recognition how fast time floated by. You will be missed tremendously. Tears constantly are racing down my face leaving me vacant inside. What rests inside me? A  pure, lonely feeling of sadness. I can’t help but find myself short of breathe, overthinking, starved, sleepless, and worried. I shake in fear. In a blink of an eye I will watch you walk away only to disappear with your decision to not fade completely. The guilt of my confession, still untold haunts me; Only left to be frequent wonders. What if…? I think..I am terribly frightened. I have never felt my heart split so painfully. What effect of you engulfs me? I will miss every minute detail about you. Every unspoken word. I know I will feel lost. No matter who seems to direct guidance, I can’t seem to navigate my way back to happiness. Thunder struck, lighting hit. I’m surrounded by confusion. Guilt crawls up my heart. My greatest scare is regret. We need to keep in touch because I can’t lose a person who has made too large of an impact on my life. You once told me “"Someone like you, is not deemed fathomable of losing.” Every word rings a bell of significance to me. That quote follows me like my common shadow; A shaded reflection. It is time for you to depart. You must proceed. You will make it far in life. Live in ambition and strive for determination. I endlessly believe in you. I am going to miss you.♥