Francis

Francis - 

I want you to know that I think about you. 

Every. 

Single. 

Day. 

And I pray for you. 

Every. 

Single. 

Day. 

I am terrified of losing you. 

I can feel your hurt. 

And more than anything I wish we could run away. 

I dont know what you're going through, and I hope it isnt my fault. 

Everything tends to be my fault. I make a mess out of everything I touch. 

What I am scared to tell you is...

I do not understand the love I have for you. 

It's like this unbreakable force. 

And believe me. 

I've prayed about it. 

I've asked God over and over to give me someone else to love. 

To let me feel for another man. 

But the feeling does not budge. 

And I keep hearing the same words over and over and over. 

"Wait." 

"Just wait...I can do anything." 

"You will get to love him one day, you just must wait." 

And when I asked why...I kept hearing that you need me more than I need you. 

Those are the words that I have heard for a solid year. 

Over and over. 

Like a never ending circle. 

Know that I've met your demons and they do not scare me. 

I think you deserve to be loved. 

And I think you are capable of anything and everything. 

I will be your ally in every battle. 

You and I have both been through the wringer. 

And we have grit. 

You might not believe it...but I see strength in you.

And when you finish this letter. 

I hope you kiss me. 

If you're reading this now, 

It was all meant to be. 

I wrote this when you were away. 

And I plan on keeping it; until the time comes for me to let you read this. 

I've loved you since the Feast of St Blaise. 

Clare