Secret

I writhe in my bed

He said it was an ugly place

Full of ugly people 

Ugly atmosphere 

But when his own ugliness hurt me

I went to the place

and found

beauty 

especially in the one who leads

but oh is it agony

keeping this secret

For loving him

Is wrong 

I catch his eyes

My coat comes off 

Glances

Panic

He avoids me

For all his kind must avoid

Temptation 

But we love

From afar

On that day we met

His essence warmed my soul

All was good

All was right 

But this secret of mine

Is one I hide