Pain

I'm the one at the sail                                                       I'm the master of my sea 

Let the bullets fly and let them 

 

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My luck

My love

My drive

It came from 

P a i n

 

Moments after my birth I had needles pierced into my skin. 

I was hooked up to a ventilator because I was so small.

 But I kept pulling out my breathing tube.

I did not want it. 

I waged a daily battle against death. 

And from a young age, I have always known that I am victorious. 

I am a force of nature to be reckoned with. 

I have grown into a woman with Audrey's Hepburn's sweetness, Serena Vanderwoodsen's mystery, and Wonder Woman's strength and appeal. 

But lately, I've found I have some cleansing to do. 

And it breaks my heart. 

Because the people I desperately need to let go of are some that I adore. 

But at the end of the day, these are the people who give me the most pain.

One is a best friend. 

One is a boy. 

And others are friends in the making. 

I do not trust many people anymore. 

And I have recently been a target for drama. 

Labeling. 

Backstabbing. 

And bashing. 

Pain is both good and bad. 

It breaks you down and builds you up. 

And if I want to continue to live my best life, I need to let go. 

I am a fighter. 

But I am a fighter for kindness. 

For strength. 

For building others up. 

I am not a girl who will be labeled. 

I am not a girl who belongs to a "group." 

I am a girl who belongs to herself. 

To her God. 

I am a girl of justice. 

Of mercy. 

and I am a woman of love. 

Watch out world. 

I'm going to be lonely for a while. 

But at least I'll be happy.