My Sunshine

You are my sunshine

My only sunshine

You make me happy

When skies are grey

Dear Megan,

Today is your 24th birthday.  Happy Birthday!

I miss you every day. So very much.

If you were alive what would you be like?

I'm sure you'd still be that goofy girl I knew and loved so much.

Here's the thing Megan.

You were my best friend.

And ever since you left me, I've been on the roller coaster journey of finding new friends.

And here I am today, nearing 25 without a best friend.

I have Kristen, but her brother and mother keep picking on me on Facebook.

They know I'm afraid of clowns..and they keep bombarding me with pictures of them on my newsfeed.

Oddly enough...I'm not so freaked out anymore.

Yep. It's gotten that old!

Be proud of me.

Her brother and our friend Juan are always treating me like I'm that girl they have a crush on and we're in kindergarten.

Last November I had a sexual harassment situation occur in the presence of Kristen and her mother.

They ended up victimizing me, and ever since there has been an uncomfortable-ness among all of us.

 

I'm at the stage where immaturity is too much.

I just want to hang out with a group who does not make me feel like I am babysitting.

There's Nicholle...but she's best friends with another girl.

Those two are exactly like how we were.

Inseparable.

I am a third wheel.

I don't have many friends now Megan.

They're either all back in Ireland or scattered here and there around the world.  

I can't just hop on a plane to see them.

I miss you so so much.

I wish you were here.

I have so much to tell you!

I'm going to drive to your stone tomorrow and eat an Oreo.

I promised I'd be your friend forever.

And I'm keeping my promise.

I love you!

Your BFFL

(Best friend for life)

Kathryn

Author's Note

Reviews

[Chris]

Poignant and all too real.

[Tony Jordan]

Beautiful sentiment - deeply personal and yet...very much relatable.
Ye gurl ye!
:)

...an Irish friend

[Kathryn Smith]

OMG OMG OMG YOU'RE BACK!!!!!!!! Jumps up and down* I'VE MISSED YOU YE BOY YE!! (okay i'll stop yelling now.) lol Thanks Tony. xx

[Tony Jordan]

heheh - Hi Kat
xD

[Annette Pisano-Higley]

I am so sorry for the loss of your BFFL Kathryn. The "You Are My Sunshine" verse and letter to Megan that follows touched my heart. I know you wrote this from yours. So real, so in the moment, so poignant. I'm going to drive to your stone tomorrow and eat an Oreo"- funny, sweet, tears. I know she is with you still. Blessings.

[Kathryn Smith]

Thank you Annette.