Kathryn

Kathryn

A Story by Kathryn Smith

You ran off with it all




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When my mother was expecting me, I wasn't growing.


The doctors advised my mother to get an abortion.


If she didn't get an abortion I would most likely be handicapped and mentally disabled.


I would never be able to walk.


I would never be able to talk.


Well, here I am.


Nearing 25 years old.


Walking.


Talking.


Normal.



And I am grateful for each and every day.


But to be honest...I feel guilty.


Why did I get to be "normal?"


And I didn't mean to take my mother away from my siblings for such a long time.


None of it was my fault.




I often look back and picture myself as a little girl.


For such a tiny thing, I was a firecracker.


I didn't care I was tiny.


I would sit on the laps of the elderly.


I befriended all those who looked lonely.


I ran wild through forests and fields.



If you could meet yourself as a child, would you?


I would have loved to meet myself.


I'd hold my tiny hand.


And I'd tell little me that everything would be okay.


To please do not get discouraged over who I was.


To not be sad that part of my life was looked back on as something bad.




Had I known who I would become.


What would happen to me..


I would have been alarmed.


Alarmed and amazed.


I've had  a wonderful life so far.


And I am so proud of myself.


What I've been able to get through.


How I have risen above obstacles.


I might not be your average 24 year old girl.


Living on her own, a solid job, married, a mom, or a wife..



But I'm getting there...


Little me with big brown eyes and ambitions ran off.


She ran off with my future plans.


And I have been looking all over for her.









© 2017 Kathryn Smith


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I loved this...
Its always been something on my mind...to meet my younger self...and tell her what reality is
But why destroy a childhood...with harsh realities
This was so nice i love iy

Posted 7 Years Ago


it was just meant to be,you laid it out perfectly

Posted 7 Years Ago


The search is a continuous cycle, but im sure you will catch her in corner of that circle, she wont even know. Id wish to meet my young self and tell me not to be afraid of following my dreams, to be braver and not doubt my talents. Life would be on the other side of this bridge

Posted 7 Years Ago



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