Memory

With knuckles red

It hit me

Like brick after brick

So I built a castle

And collapsed in the tower

Fingers in knotted hair

Shut my eyes

Shut my ears

I hate these memories

I hated last year

My mind is entwined

Always running

Always dreaming

A blessing and a curse

There is a fine line

Between pain and agony

Sadness and hurt

My calendar on a wall

Numbers and dates

Circles and lines

Tormenting me

Bribing me

Teasing and calling

I'm wide awake

And I see me and you

In moments

In dust

It took a year

A year and I still frown

Your songs and words decay

Thank god

I could rip them off

Quick like band aids

But memory?

Memory scars 

Like the incisions on my body

Clinging forever

Ruining skin

My memory churns

Opens doors

In mornings I jump in joy

In nights I crumble in sadness

Regret and distress

Why did you do this?

I'm tired

I'm dead

I thought after a year

I could shoot you away

And I'd curl up in sun

Smelling dandelions

Fresh cut grass

Sprinklers

Ice cream  

Cheap thrills

But it's nearly May

And you are here to stay

I worked so hard to be rid of you

But what you did to me

Who would ever forget it?

Reviews

[Chris]

Quite the "taste" of real throughout this one.

[Robert Parlange]

"Look Dave, I can see you're really upset about this. I honestly think you ought to sit down calmly, take a stress pill, and think things over."
HAL 9000, "2001: A Space Odyssey"