Settle

I feel like the grim reaper.

JH

I had a thing for my brothers friend when I was 19.

He liked me too. And I was so happy and eager.

But he ended up being the person my brother's ex girlfriend cheated with.

But for 5 solid years..

He  still contacted me and wanted to get together.

In secret.

To "get back at my brother."

And because "I'm really hot."

Not for a relationship..just for sex.

"Come on, don't you want just one night of fun? I can book a hotel for us."

I finally put my foot down and told him I'd rather have someone like Sean Heuston.

Someone who had my morals.

I would rather be in a long committed relationship.

He slunk away without a word.

JM

He took me on a motorcycle ride shortly after he broke up with his GF.

And now he wants to be a couple.

This guy is my little brother.

We've known each other forever.

He and his sisters are my best friends.

I just can't be with him.

It feels so wrong.

And now I have to tell him.

EF

I had the biggest crush on him in high school.

And now he wants me.

But he has changed..and he looks like a lumberjack.

You could see his beard from a mile away.

He also just wants sex.

No relationship.

So I said no.

AC

His GF cheated on him.

So he has trust issues.

He wants me...

No relationship.

I can hear him now getting out his phone and texting me..

"We gotta finish watching that movie.." Wink.

This is getting exhausting.

I sat in church tonight.

And that's when he walked in. A man I had seen at the Library in the past. Or at least he looked exactly like him. I stole glances at him through Mass.

Was it him?!! I knew those eyes. I knew those mannerisms.  I remember those crinkles by his eyelids. He pretended to look up at the lights above me..and I knew he was looking at me, too.

If our tension, curiosity and nervousness were fire, we would've burned the church down.  

We both tried to stick around after, but got pushed out by the crowd of church goers.

Is it him? Is that him?!!

It's been 7 months since he disappeared.

Since I was too afraid, too nervous, leaving him in the rain with his dog and making him think I didn't like him.

I am so distraught that I ruined things, because he was so good.

I still want to set things straight so badly.

I hope this is him.

Because I'm tired of letting other men down...

and being called out for having "standards too high."

Life don't fail me now.

He feels right.

And I refuse to settle.

Reviews

[Coyote Poetry]

I enjoyed the thoughts and story told in the words. I liked the logic. Knowing and understanding people. Some people carry heavy baggage and need to be left alone. Always a pleasure to read your work dear Kathryn. Thank you for sharing the amazing tale.
Coyote

[Kathryn Smith]

Thank you dear friend. :)

[Coyote Poetry]

You are welcome Kathryn.

[Robert Parlange]

You sound like a person of faith. Have faith in yourself also. You know what's right. Don't lose yourself in anyone. Don't surrender your spirit or your individuality. A true relationship is a sharing, a coming together of ideals. You're on the right path.

[Kathryn Smith]

Why thank you very much Robert! :) I appreciate it. I credit Mr Heuston for keeping me on the path of faith. xx

[Tony Jordan]

Your frustration in each of the 'failures' (by the way failures are life's lessons and they NEVER come cheap) seems to indicate that you will one day accept less than your worth but the end reinforces the Fu*k You Life sass that will bag you the man of your dreams.
Well penned - unique (from what I've read on WC) but that's because you're a one off.
Keep 'er lit ye gurl ye !!
:))

[Kathryn Smith]

Thanks a million ye boy ye! :) How are you Tony?? Hope you're well. We'll have to catch up soon! Miss you. xx

[wordman]

those morals is what protects you

[Kathryn Smith]

Thanks WordMan!! :D

[wordman]

my pleasure

[Dr. YumnaKay]

This is interesting. Turning down men ain't a bad thing if you don't feel the connection. But like the last man here, if it is, it just clicks (or so they say lol) but until then you gotta keep looking around haha :p

This was a deep piece in many ways and relatable to some level too.
Nicely penned, Kathryn :)

[Kathryn Smith]

Thanks girl!! :D

[Dr. YumnaKay]

You're welcome, Kat! 😊😊