Love you more

What do you do when the chapter ends? Do you close the book and never read it again?

 

The sun goes down and it comes back up

The world; it turns no matter what.

And If it all goes wrong..

                     

                            D a r l i n g just h o l d on.

It's February already!

It seems like it was just yesterday we were ringing in the New Year.

I generally loathe the January/February months because I cant stand the cold anymore.

Valentines Day is also round the corner.

Not my favorite holiday.

I recently babysat a little girl and her brother who mean the world to me.

The boy snuggled up to me on the couch as if it were the most natural thing on earth.

When his weight leaned against me; I became overwhelmed for a second.

I remembered vividly holding him as a small baby. Looking at him now and seeing how much he had grown moved me.

Today I drove thinking of my best friend.

And a memory of her funeral entered my mind.

I could smell my perfume. I could see myself; a broken 19 year old girl standing at her grave. Black coat. Black and white dress. No tears.

But then to my surprise things began to fade - and to my horror I couldn't remember much of anything else. I used to remember every little thing that happened clearly.

The little boy's growth and the memory of my friend all melted down to one thing.

Life really does go by quite rapidly.

They say that your brain does not finish developing until the age of 25.

I will be 25 this July.

And lately I have actually been at peace with myself.

I've been less worried about what others think. I've accepted past mistakes and bad memories. I've grown leaps and bounds from hard lessons and when I look into the mirror I see more of a woman than a girl.

It's all frightening but exciting at the same time.

Today, February 5th 2017 - the world on the outside looks indescribably frightening.

If I had to describe it - I'd say my country is like a moody teenager.

Flipping out over every single little thing.

Even our own President is like a pmsing girl; ranting away on twitter.

Social Media has taken over and looking back - I never dreamed as a child that this is what my future would look like.

Going back to the little boy; his innocence and his consistent trust has taught me

something.

The most important thing to do right now as I am continuing to grow up; is to love.

Simply love.

Love fiercely as much as I can.

And live as much as I can.

Because we never know what day will be our last.

If you're reading this; ...even if I don't know you well.

Do me a favor and tell everyone else you know the same thing.

That you love them.

And hold on.

Life is journey.

You'll blink like me; and suddenly be an adult.

 

 

Author's Note

Reviews

[Tony Jordan]

The world is spinning ever faster - I don't think science has confirmed that yet but that's how it feels.
We'll all have to hold on that bit tighter now.
Nice personification of the USA - very clever Kat.
Just hold on could be a new logo for life.
Cool as...