Surprise Yourself

Let go. 

And surprise yourself. 

We've all been there. 

Fear of rejection. 

Fear of not being accepted. 

Fear of ourselves. 

We fear because we've felt the pain. The loss. The rejection. 

An excruciating stab in the back from someone. 

I was betrayed by someone I put my heart into. 

I was left for dead. 

Left for nothing. 

For most of my life in general I've been the butt of jokes. 

I've been the kid who was bullied. 

I've seen how low human beings can be. 

This shaped me to become a whisperer. 

An observer. 

This planted my heart with seeds of wise love. 

Some of the road was damaging. 

To this day I am full of doubt of my own beauty. 

I know it's there..and I am tired of denying it. 

I am exhausted of putting myself down. 

Our minds  can be vicious. 

This week I have a goal. 

I'm going to surprise myself and reach out. 

I'm going to make a friend. 

I'm going to talk to a man at the Library. 

A man who for the past week has said goodbye to me when I leave. 

Who has a face that lights up when I walk into the room. 

I am going to speak to him. 

And I am not going to think I am a hideous girl whom no man wants to touch. 

How many of us have missed out on things through fear of rejection? 

How many of us have not taken chances or followed our hearts? 

How many joyous occasions have been bitter and lonely?

We really do only have one life. 

And I plan to live it. 

and plow through my own fears and insecurities. 

It's time to surprise myself. 

It's time to make a friend. 

Author's Note

Reviews

[PoeticSorcery]

I see where you're going with this, and admire your courage for doing what is necessary to move forward. I wish I had the gumption to not let fear get in my way, but we all hit that point when we do, it's not a race, right? :)

[Levi Levin]

An excellent poem with an excellent objective! Go for it!