A Letter to Timothy

There was a boy who lived inside his head

He couldn't face the world so he turned his back instead

He couldn't see in front of eyes

and he knew from the finish to the start

It was bound to fall apart

Wouldn't it be sweet if he could die from a broken heart?

 

Timothy

There is a lump in my throat

Constantly

You were the source of my happiness

and now the source of my sorrow

I am to be a ghost for Halloween

For you killed me

but I miss you

I miss you

I miss you so

I....

Do you you miss me?

I don't know

I finally cried today

Because I do not like my life

I hate the thought of letting go

but I hope you know

I don't want to go

Who are you?

Who the hell are you?

What is there left to show?

Dear Timothy

You're a wretched man

I curse your name

I curse your door

Do you remember?

When I knocked?

After begging

You opened it

Remember my face?

My eyes in fear and disgrace?

I was breaking on the inside

Why don't you sleep?

Why did you choose her over me?

Why didn't you give me a chance?

Why did you play with my emotions like that?

I hate you

I hate you

I hate you so

Timothy I feel ugly

I feel more than alone

Stone cold

So hideous you've made my world less bold

You promised a thirsty horse water

You led her to a well and drained it

Why?

Why?

Why?

I feel trapped in your chains

In your misery

In your vain and delusional brain

Nothing is permanent

I don't want to let you go

This whole world is nothing but a freak show

Fake

The media is a blistering lie

Society is sick like war

I hate how women are only well liked

If they're only a certain way

Timothy will you speak to me again?

Or are you sitting on main street

Smiling your cheshire cat grin?

Sticking pins in a new girls heart?

Timothy can't you see?

Clearly you can't

I am exhausted

I am broken

I am nearly gone

I am the girl who traveled so long

She ruined herself in your image

Yet through all this

I'd still sing you a song

I am cursed with a large heart

and Timothy in the future

I hope you remember that I was there for you

and I hope you change

I hope you change for the better

Because I know eventually

You'll die from all the stings

The things you hide will find you

A long and painful death it will be

Yet fear not

You'll finally be exactly like me

Someone who got lost and drowned in the sea

 

Author's Note

Reviews

[Abhigyan]

Heya, who said u r ugly? And its him who is bad, not you. Then why worry, and cry and whine? I know my words won't have any effect on u, but still as I learnt from life herself early on, u too will...best of luck!

[Lorry]

It's sad to think how some humans treat others, discarding them before even knowing them, making instant judges, or leading someone on they have no intention of following through with. There will always be these people, the secret is not to let them take up any more space in that big heart and save the space instead for others that see you for what you are. Heartfelt, poignant write, hopefully writing it will at least help breaking the chain.