Dangerous

Something about you makes me feel like a

Dangerous Woman

Something about you

Makes me want to do things that I shouldn't

Her eyes.

His eyes.

Their eyes.

All eyes.

All eyes are on me when I walk down the aisle at church.

I am the talk of my little town.

The girl who is going to Ireland.

Who just might have a man there waiting for her.

Gossip swirls and stories change.

Anne: "Ruth! Did you hear? Kathryn has an Irishman!"

Ruth: "No! She has FOUR." 

Anne: "I bet she's a mistress." 

Ruth: "No that's not right, Bill told me she got married to a Dublin man and they have a child on the way."

Anne: "No Ruth, there's a baby there already!"

(I have to admit I got a real laugh out of all this.)

Why is this all happening?

Because my mother has publicly shamed me.

Ireland usually comes up in conversations and she has continuously, out loud, has said things like..

"Don't come back pregnant."

Awkward silence.

All eyes are on me..

and I always try and save myself.

"Why would you say something like that? I wouldn't do something like that. I'm going to be fine."

Then my mother comes back with..

"I know what's in your mind, I know your ideas."

More awkward silence, and I always have to smile politely, excuse myself, and walk away.

This usually occurs after church.

I feel I'm starting to get a reputation.

I'm starting to get labeled.

Why? Because sex is a sin.

But in the end I am only human.

But really.

What's so wrong about simply wanting to sleep with someone?

I might, I might not.

I just want to live. I want to love.

I want to feel. I could die in two weeks. I could die in a year.

I am now the scarlet letter.

My love life is my business. Not my family's. It seems I am constantly watched.

With walls around me and chains around my legs. I can only go so far.

All my life I have been a good girl.

A good girl that turned wild, but had to run wild with extreme caution.

I had to strategically plan things out. I had to learn how to outsmart and unfortunately lie.

And now I've had enough.

I'm going to live my life the way I want to.

No judgment.

No shame.

Nothing.

I don't want to die with boring stories.

I don't want to die never having a burst of danger.

The rules are meant for breaking sometimes.

You just have to be careful with what you do...

and which rule you decide to break.

Author's Note

Reviews

[Writing Angel]

Truth is told! Choices make us human and they also can make us better .... choosing your choice is the most difficult thing of all

[Richard🖌]

Well, Sweet Kathryn,
See what your mom's sarcastic, thoughtless, inconsiderate barbs have driven you to … thank God, finally! Ha-hahhh!
As you well know, from my reviews of your romantic ventures and fantasies in Paris, I'm not very good at reviewing stories and books, but I know you are an excellent writer, so when I received your invite to review this little "naughty girl" story (like you can't resist), I just couldn't, either!
How nice to see you're overcoming your charming girly shyness, giving-in to spreading your voluptuously bold wings, into the adventures of true individual womanhood … how else to sate desires and discover the core essence of one's own true self; but, as a warmblooded Welshman, I am jealous of the lucky Irish lad, who's stolen your most beautiful heart away. ; )
Good girl I know you are, as in the freed spirit aglow from your words, I can virtually feel the embers of sensual maturity ready to burst forth into an inferno, the bud to become fragrant rose, and my heart dances for you to find it all with this fine Celtic knight of your choosing.

Most sincere blessings to you, M'Lady Faire — go find yourself, set your radiant spirit a'soar high and free … I so love your writing, as you well know, Dear Kathryn … warmest hugs to you! ⁓ Richard

[Kathryn Smith]

Thanks for the review Richard! Life is such a strange thing isn't it? :) Warmest hugs right back to you! xx

[Coyote Poetry]

Dear Kathryn, I loved this story.
"Anne: "Ruth! Did you hear? Kathryn has an Irishman!"
Ruth: "No! She has FOUR."
Anne: "I bet she's a mistress."
Ruth: "No that's not right, Bill told me she got married to a Dublin man and they have a child on the way."
Anne: "No Ruth, there's a baby there already!"
(I have to admit I got a real laugh out of all this.) "
Four Irish men. Must be a hell of a woman. Old way hold on tightly. The above lines. Perfect. Thank you my friend for sharing this tale. You made me laugh this morning.
Coyote

[Elise Anton]

This writing captured me and held me Kathryn. I was with you, you carried me and I wanted to go with you. The style is perfect - at least for me.

"Gossip swirls and stories change." Perfectly 'rounding up' the consequences of empty minds busily filling up with others' living...

"I don't want to die never having a burst of danger." Superb.

Thanks for sharing. We all have an Ireland. Some of us are too timid to ever 'travel' there. Kudos to you for daring.

[dan]

Kathryn, Reputations and labels are affixed by empty minds with active tongues. They may define you in others' minds but should never define one's self. The only danger that awaits you in Ireland is to be insulted by a rude leprechaun. Don't listen to critics...forge your own path and stick to it. Make sure you tell your readers "see you later" when you go. Good luck! take care...dan

[Kathryn Smith]

Thanks Dan! I will definitely write something before i leave.. and when I come back be prepared for a lot more writing! hahah! I'm scared...but I think this trip is going to be amazing. :) Thanks for the review! Its nice to have someone not stick a label on me and understand! Take care my friend!

[dan]

Have fun and readily absorb all that you see and feel. take care...dan

[Nisreen]

Well
some rules have no meaning
but they are protective
and to stem outside them means exposure to some degree of nature
if one can hold their own and protect themselves
i guess it happens

but i favor safety as a person

i know exactly what you mean in this write .............

[wordman]

sometimes it`s the only way,go for it !