Heat

If you're the flame

I'm kerosene

I am known as the sun girl.

A girl who can't get enough of heat.

I live for summer and thrive off of warmth.

Since September, I have been silently bracing myself for the numbing Wisconsin cold.

and when I say numbing, I'm not joking.

We really lucked out, because we are just getting our big snow the moment I am writing this.

I was bracing myself for nothing for such a long time, so having all that time to get ready for the cold was nice.

And when the man who keeps you warm lives thousands of miles away, you can't really do much when you're cold sometimes.

The only thing a girl like me can do is think warm thoughts.

Selena Gomez was born the day after me, and I am genuinely enjoying her new album Revival.

It's a pleasant surprise because I hadn't really liked her music before.

She has grown leaps and bounds.

This album is me.

It is danceable and relatable.

Full of anthems and girl power.

Her music is dusted with lust and over all is something I've been needing.

Because Gomez and I were born so close together, I feel as though we are in some ways the same girl.

Maybe it's just me, but it's always exciting to meet someone who was born on the day you were, or close to.

You share something other people cannot.

I was recently asked this question:

What's the most awkward thing that has ever happened to you?

I thought for a while, and soon I could feel an embarrassed smile creep into my lips.

I had traveled to Madison for an eye check up and I was to meet a new doctor who was covering for my usual doctor.

My mother has always told me to tell the doctor everything, even if it sounds a little odd.

It's important especially for an eye condition. Eyes are serious things.

My father and I were waiting in the eye exam room and soon we met the new doctor.

Eventually I took a breath in and told him that sometimes while taking a shower I could see what looked like bright yellow sparks...but it only happened in the shower.

I eyed my dad who was immersed in a magazine sitting behind my doctor.

The doctor paused and suddenly got a devious look on his face.

He mischievously smiled at me and with a twinkle in his eye, he leaned forward and quietly asked:

"Well what do you do in the shower Kathryn?"

My eyes darted to my Dad who, was still reading that stupid magazine. He didn't even look up.

I sat there staring at this man who was now touching my knee.

Sex and Lust.

It's what humans give in to.

It's what we gravitate to.

It can destroy us or build us up.

We write about it.

We sing about it.

We obsess about it.

We read about it.

We talk about it.

There really is nothing warmer than passion.

A fire and a spark.

The feeling of power.

It's time to embrace this power of appeal.

In these cold months I'll dream about summer.

When we don't have to wear as many clothes.

When the sun is out and I can walk around barefoot.

When midnight smells like love and adventure.

When I live cantering though the forest trails.

When the stars can be viewed for hours.

And when hopefully that eye doctor can take out his frustration on someone else.

Most awkward moment EVER!  

Author's Note

Reviews

[Coyote Poetry]

I do understand this story. Winter blues are here. No snow and too cold to go outside. Kids are desperate for the park and the beach. I liked your thoughts and wishes. I do appreciate the warm days. Thank you my friend for sharing the outstanding poetry.
Coyote

[wordman]

lol,i couldn`t imagine digging out of snow every day,we get 2 to 3 inches at best about 3 to 4 times a year

[Riddhi]

As dan said i also like winter more than summer for the same reason..In fact its my favourite season...Great work and nice writing...Keep it up...

[Kathryn Smith]

Thank you! :))

[dan]

See, I like winter better than summer. You can always put on MORE clothes in winter but you can only take off so many layers of clothes in summer. At least that's the rules in Indiana, PA. 8^) One thing: when he touched your knee lasciviously and made that creepy comment, I don't think it was his frustration that motivated him. I'd say, again, creepiness.
The way you weave this piece together is very well done. This could almost be divided into 3 or 4 smaller stories, but you make them mesh so well. That is GOOD writing, young lady. A really nice piece. take care...dan

[Kathryn Smith]

haha thank you!! :)) I had all these things in my head and I didn't quite know how to weave it, but I'm glad it looks good! That doctor was seriously so creepy though...I mean I thought it was just really unprofessional. And to think my Dad missed the whole thing! I'm not sure if I should be relieved or disappointed! XD

[ANTO]

This is seriously funny Kathryn. xD - see thats me laughing...
It is the calibre I would expect to see in cosmo or some such - you think of submitting it anywhere that pays?

[Kathryn Smith]

LOL! ANTO! Yes! I actually have thought about it, but I've a feeling they would turn my doctor story into some kind of harassment story and totally twist it around. haha but dear lord..that was seriously soooooo awkward! After he asked me "what do you do in the shower" I awkwardly was like errmm..I wash my hair? ...it got worse after that. haha! Never again!

[ANTO]

I never thought of that haha. You should have said to him - 'Hey isn't it a lot of weather we've been having lately?" - total confuzzlement...

[Kathryn Smith]

Yesss!! I love it!

[ANTO]

I had a real awkward moment. As a teen my first visit to the local Chinese restaurant saw me drinking the lemon water as if it was a custom - as if I was like, totally into the Chinese culture and stuff - it was awkward when the staff member came up and said - "Excuse me sir, that's for washing the sauce from the Buffalo wings off." - Cringe glands set to stun ...arrgh

[Kathryn Smith]

:OOO Oooohh Anntoooo!!! haha! That's too funny! XD You poor guy.