I Won't

Hold your head up

See the daylight

Hold your head up

Because your future's looking bright

I'm writing this to remind myself.

I'm writing this to remind myself that it's all going to be okay.

Every day all I see are my fellow classmates getting engaged, married, having children, and overall.. everything I hoped would happen to me. 

It is so strange to me.

The numbers are getting higher and higher.

It seems every time I log onto Facebook I see nothing but beautiful engagement pictures of happy people.

Newborn babies smiling.

White dresses and glowing faces.

And they just keep coming...

It drives me nuts.

I'm happy for them, don't get me wrong, but it heightens my fear of being all alone.

I am in no rush to get married..and I really do not want a baby right now.

There's just something poisonous called loneliness looming over me.

I always push it away, but you can never run or hide from it.

Everything will be okay.

Just because my mother got married when she was my age doesn't mean I'm doomed.

She's just so lucky she got to experience it, at my own age

She found love and didn't have to worry about finding it anymore.

I need to change my mindset.

Life is a journey and it's important to enjoy it.

Life is too short to worry.

To be so worried about what isn't happening to us.

I need to remember to focus on all the good things happening.

Sure these past few years have been a rough roller-coaster...but good things are bound to happen sooner than later!

Everything will be okay.

Okay?

Okay.

I won't worry anymore.

 

All that I want is to love and just be loved

I won't let anybody tell me no  

I won't take anything for granted

Because I know that nothing good comes easy

If it did I wouldn't be me

Author's Note

Reviews

[Coyote Poetry]

Great wisdom in the poetry dear Kathryn .
"Because I know that nothing good comes easy
If it did I wouldn't be me"
Above lines. Words to live by. Thank you for sharing the excellent poetry.
Coyote

[Richard🖌]

When considering You, Dear Kathryn, the caliber and class of talented and accomplished lady you are, sooo beautiful in so many ways, it unsettles the senses to imagine how it is possible that you would be lonely, that some worthy gent has not come along and you swept each other off your feet into romantically, sensual bliss of forevermore.
Were I a younger man, equal to the woman, I would settle the situation of which you so forlornly speak, once and for all … and from the plea in your words I am saddened to conceive of even the slightest possibility of you being unhappy and lonely.

Some things are so inherently out of sorts they touch the heart in a deep, abiding way!
Come, Kathryn, to this olde Welshman's strong arms … have a tender, caring embrace of genuine affection to tide thee over! ⁓ Richard

[Robert Parlange]

Love shows up when you least expect it. It doesn't seem to follow any type of schedule. Just open yourself to the world and have faith.

I like your style of writing.

[ANTO]

Nothing worth its salt is easy as you point out Kathryn. So many sayings allude to this and for good reason. While we have one day left on this good Earth - it is still early enough to find that love for which we were destined, I feel anyhow.
Fear can sometimes be the precursor for desperation and desperation is as pungent an aroma to the b******s of this world as a sunflower is to a bee.
Have you ever heard the Irish folk song 'A bunch of Thyme' - it has great wisdom on the subject of your story here.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=qKeaIHNT8KQ

[Kathryn Smith]

I've heard that one! I've grown up with Irish folk music, I really love that rendition of it! Thank you for sharing! x It really does have great wisdom.

[B]

I love the openness you have here
Only all good things happen in good time
You have to feel lonely
to enjoy a marriage
And you have to be sad
to be very happy

Its a beautiful cycle
to go through with a simple smile
May god send you the man of your dreams
Cheers

[wordman]

sounds like great advise on life !

[Abhigyan]

My fav part:

"Life is too short to worry.
To be so worried about what isn't happening to us.
...... need to remember to focus on all the good things happening.
Sure these past few years have been a rough roller-coaster...but good things are bound to happen sooner than later!"

'Cuz Its like I = Me, It relates to me every moment of my life...and the same inspires me to live on...

All in all, nice drawing (using words of Course!!!), Keep sharing!! ...yes May the lord help you find your.....you know :-P :-D

[KittyKatgirl]

This is a really good poem. A lot of people can relate to this. Wanting to love someone and be loved back. I enjoyed reading this. Great job Kathryn and keep up the great work

[Kathryn Smith]

Aw thank you! :)

[KittyKatgirl]

You're welcome :)

[Kathryn Smith]

Much appreciation!