Happiness

Lost in skies of powdered gold
Caught in clouds of silver ropes
Showered by the empty hopes
I tumble down, falling fast to the ground

I know I'll wither so peel away the bark
 

Because nothing grows when it is dark
 

In spite of all my fears, I can see it all so clear
I see it all so clear

Cover your crystal eyes
And let your colors bleed and blend with mine

I'm holding eye drops in my hand.

Reality has hit me in the back of the head.

My eye has been hurting.

Maybe I'm losing vision.

I can't even tell anymore.

I'm too scared to figure it out.

To know that I have to deal with this for the rest of my life makes me so beyond angry.

Scared.

Lost.

Uncertain.

But it could be so much worse.

I have to force myself to step back and count the good things that are happening to me.

But then comes that dull pain in my eye ball again.

I can't ignore it.

There are still stitches that need to be taken out.

Possible surgery.

I don't know what I'm going to endure.

No one does.

If I close my eyes, I can see so clearly.

I can see what I saw before a damaged eye.

It's beautiful.

The funny thing about life is we  have two simple choices:

To be happy about it.

Or to be sad.

I choose to be happy.

Hold a rock in your hand and cast it into some water.

The rock will create ripples.

Like me, the rock will sink and drown. 

But the ripples could be my happiness.

That is how happy people who are in pain erase their agony and fear.

Others who are in pain can catch my happiness and spread it around too.

and for a moment....for just one moment.. that happiness I made ripple can take away all of our pain.

It could change everything

Like how tossing one little rock in a river can alter the flow of a water.

But I'm okay in see-through skin

 I forgive what is within

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