Albatross

There's an albatross around your neck

All the things you've said and the things you've done

can you carry it with no regret?

Can you stand the person you've become?

Your albatross

Let it go

Shoot it

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Maybe this is a youngest child thing...

but I feel like I'm never good enough.

I feel like in order to be praised or to have someone to be proud of me, I have to not only shine, but I have to move mountains.

I'm trying to become a Teacher.

I also love to write so much..

but when your sister has always been the insanely smart, advanced placement type of person, and is now an accomplished teacher..

and when your brother is making it big in New York City as a writer...

What am I supposed to do?

I had a family reunion today.

All my Aunts and Uncles seem to view me as a girl who spends all her life on Facebook.

I get the vibe that they think I have no life.

Yet they're blown away by my siblings.

They think I'm a boy crazy, social media obsessed, dumb girl.

 

When am I going to shine?

Isn't anyone ever going to see my worth?

What do I have to do to make myself taller?

I feel so unbelievably small sometimes.

Not respected.

Not taken seriously.

Part of being the youngest child of the family is the pressure.

The constant comparisons and judgments.

One day they'll be proud of me.

One day they'll see.

I'm not going to move mountains.

I'm going to move the whole damn world!

They'll see.

and boy will they be talking.

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Reviews

[JoeM]

Embrace the albatross, Kathryn. Your spot on this earth is reserved for you. You have no need to justify your existence. I did enjoy your viewpoint.

[Kathryn Smith]

Thank you very much. I guess I just get kind of freaked out about things sometimes and where I'm going and what I'm doing and if it's right.

[JoeM]

If I can make a comment, Kathryn. The purpose of life is to experience. That's it. Whatever you are experiencing embrace it willingly. As you are experiencing it anyway, do it self-determinedly. When you are able to willingly experience, you take control of the experience and it ceases to control you.'
The true resolution of any difficulty is the willingness for it to be okay to have it. This is having no resistance to it. Resistance is what holds a situation in place. If I have presumed to give you more than you wanted, I apologise.

[Kathryn Smith]

Those are some very wise words, thank you!! I never really thought of it that way. I'll be sure to hold this in the back of my mind from now on. x Thanks a million!