The Dwelling

The ghost of you

It keeps me awake

These eyes sitting on the wall

They watch every move I make

There was a vacancy in my heart.

The vacancy has been filled.

I've been waiting for this my whole life.

but why am I so scared?

I find myself running to the river.

Marking up the dirt.

All I hear are whispers as I escape to the water.

Stop running. sprinting. fleeing. flying.

This is it.

You'll be fine. Just fine!

Follow the wind, breathe in the sweet air.

Listen to your heart.

You're on the right path.

Just stop.

Stop.

It's impossible to push him away.

He dwells inside of me.

He lingers in my bones.

He lives in my daydreams.

He visits me at night.

I'm held captive in the mornings.

His ghost is loving.

I am burning.

and the Atlantic ocean aches with us.

Putting yourself out there is so scary.

I've been used.

Taken advantage of.

Played.

I don't want it to happen again.

This time, maybe this time...

It'll be brilliant.

I'm right on queue.  

Ready?

Set?

Love.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=t_k-vs5BxYk

I keep going to the river to pray

because I need something that can wash out the pain