Waiting Game

Does your imagination try to make you what you wanted to be?
Because I'm sorry I do what I did, but it came naturally!
 

And I gave it all away just so I could say that
 

I know

I know I know

I know 

that you're gonna be OK anyway

It felt great

it felt right

My mind hates me now.

It hates me but is over the moon all at the same time.

I caved and finally gave him everything.

At least everything through words.

It was amazing.

So amazing my head is now screaming at me.

My soul is on fire

My body is wanting more and more of it.

but it can't have it.

I can only have his typed words.

You can only do so much.

Thankfully we have solid imaginations.

We can feel each other.

If that's not a soul connection I don't know what is.

Sorry mind. I know you want me to lock myself up and stay away from feelings.

You want me to focus on more important things...like school..and a job.

I know you're flipping out right now....but calm down!

You're going to be okay. I'm trying my best to keep myself together.

It's definitely a challenge.

Lesson #1: Always keep your heart locked tight. Don't let your mind retire.

My heart is my best friend.

The things it felt recently shook me.

They liberated me.

Now it's just a waiting game.

A waiting game that is both addicting, agonizing and heavenly.

Testing the waters can sure make you learn what your heart truly wants.

It shows you that you were right all along. 

You always knew deep down inside how things would fold out.  

It's encouraging.

It's a victory. A win.

A step in the right direction.

It's called surrendering and falling in love.

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