Brave

Don't Cry. Hold your head up high.

She would want you to.

I won't let your memory go because your colors they

burn so bright

Dear Megan,

Hello! It's me! Your very best friend.

I can't give you this letter because you aren't here anymore, but I felt the need to write it, because it is nearly March 6th.

First off, I wanted to tell you how sorry I am for every fight we ever had. We didn't have very many thank goodness, but I feel like I wasn't there for you enough.

Even when you were dying I feel like I should've been around more. What bugs me the most is I never got to be alone with you.

I never truly got to have a good last conversation with you. I had so much I wanted to tell you. 

I want you to know that it ripped me apart me seeing the kids pick you away and beat you down at school. I tried my best to stand up for you, but as you know our high school was huge and I couldn't always be there.

I still smile whenever I see a cow though! :D Mooooooo!

My favorite high school memory is when we got in trouble and called to the office for mooing at lunch!! That is literally the best story!

Remember the time I took you to the Christmas Parade? To this day I am SO glad I did because that was your last Christmas.

I still have your gifts and I still have the huge get well poster you made for me after the car crash.

You were the greatest friend. I mean it!

I regret not having enough sleepovers or parties.  I know you wanted more of them, but I was always so busy with dance classes or homework or watching little kids.

More than anything I wish I could go back in time and have at least one more laugh with you.

I'll never ever forget the dream I had of you. The one where I went to the cemetery to visit you, only to find all the gravestones gone!

In their places were a bunch of people mingling with each other holding red cups. 

I made my way through the crowd to find your spot...and there you were! Standing. Alive. Healthy. Glowing.

You had a golden streak in your black hair, and you were the happiest I've ever seen you.

You didn't say a word but you gave me the biggest hug. It felt so real!

The nice thing about having faith is I know you're okay and that you wouldn't want me to be sad...but I miss you.

There is one last thing I want you to know:

You. You my friend were brave.

You planned your own funeral.

You picked out your gravestone..and you even picked out where you wanted to be buried.

I could never do that. I'm still scared of death.

I'm sure you were scared too, but I heard from your mother you eventually accepted it.

Your stone has a shooting star on it...and so does a picture frame you gave me.

The frame with our picture in it says "Friends are like the stars. You don't always see them but you know they are always there."

Sometimes I wonder if you knew what was going to happen the entire time I knew you.  

After you died we made you exactly one thousand origami paper cranes.

I put the one thousandth crane in your hand in your casket.

They were beautiful. Just like you.

There are still so many things I wish I could tell you!

As the years go by I still miss you....but the gap is slowly being filled.

It's not so bad anymore.

Of course no one can ever replace you...

but time is an interesting thing.

I promise I'll never forget you.

I love you Megan!

Thanks for having my back.

Love Always,

Your BFF  (Best Friend Forever)

Kathryn

To whoever just read this:

I want you to go hug your friends.

Even if they annoy you sometimes..go tell them how much they mean to you.

Because one day they might not wake up.

The memory of being here with you is one I'm going to take my life through...

because some days stay gold forever.

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