What if?

In my short 22 years of life I have learned many lessons.

Most lessons were lessons a young girl should never have to go through. I learned what it was like to be changed forever in a car crash, and I saw what it was like to watch my best friend die from terminal cancer. 

I learned that life can be a very dark and unfair place, and that love is trickier than I thought.

 

We often ask ourselves this question: “What if?” We think too much. We think so much in fact, that our minds become our enemies and fill our hearts with terrible thoughts.

We worry.

The “what ifs” can stop us from doing something great, it can also demolish relationships with friends and loved ones. As human beings all we want is to be loved. It’s how we survive; it’s what makes us thrive. Love is the greatest thing in the world! It can also be the worst thing in the world. In the end those two little words can come back and kill us as we die. “What if?”

I do not want those words to take me when I go. I want to die knowing I took every chance I had…and I want go knowing the end of a story that started. They say the quietest people have the loudest minds. I am one of those people. I always have been.

The story I am about to tell you is not a love story. It’s a lesson. It is also a story that is not finished yet…and I am determined to finish it.

Part of me knows something magnificent is waiting in the great unknown. In the future. It happens to be waiting in a beautiful city. Some people love it. Some people hate it. I happen to feel both ways about it..and you’ll eventually know why.

My story begins in Paris.

 

Reviews

[Terry O'Leary]

An intriguing start!
Terry

[Coyote Poetry]

A amazing opening chapter. I like the honest and personal tone of the chapter. You create good story line and character. I work tonight and I have four days off. I will read the complete tale tomorrow night. Thank you Kathryn for sharing the excellent chapter.
Coyote

[Richard🖌]

What "If's" … life is so filled with them, Kathryn, some that deeply sadden, while others offer great promises and fantasies.
I actually read this entire story and waited until completely finished before commenting on any one chapter, and you are certainly correct about one thing, despite that it was tremendously interesting, exciting, and filled with romantic possibilities and hopeful notions, it was a truly disappointing lesson learned, especially for this romantic olde bard.

Nothing very interesting to critique, except you might address the double space following the second paragraph. : )

[LL]

Good job on writing! Your doing great!