Degrees

"human behavior"

I wander the Aisles

looking at cans, the

ingrediants, and find

myself thinking about

the price of everything.

It's cold in the freezer

section and I realize that

I wore the wrong kind of bra,

I feel things tighten, standing

with the bumps on my arms...

lost in my thoughts I try

not to notice the changes

in temperature, fleeting

metaphors and my mind turns

to him, and I admit;

I have loved him,

in degrees over the

empty years.

In waves of warmth

and also in the icy

grip of fear or with

the burning churning pit

of rage.;

The lady with the hot

pink hair caught her man

looking at my chilled assets...

she's severly pissed

and her insecurity flails

at me.

I suppose it may have been

a little bit my fault

the turn of my thoughts

may have contributed somewhat

to the draw of his eye.

I shake my head and try

to wipe her off my awareness,

but her negativity makes

me uncomfortable, she

continues to berate him

and I have no doubt

who rules that roost.

and then I remember why

I have chosen to remain

single for quite sometime.

I then throw another gallon

of comfort food into

my basket and dared to

look back at her...and

I think to myself,

I would rather

die than to ever see

him so trapped and beaten

by my love...

and then I realize he is smiling
at her, and I know he is
thinking that she really must
still care...either that or he knows
he won't be bullied into
grocery shopping for a while.

Reviews

[Chris]

Flaws yes - life happens. I won't point them out here, but I liked the thoughts and realities you expressed.

[Emily B]

You have this way of sharing the big existential stuff smack dab in the middle of the grocery store. I see myself in your shoes. I saw my own him that I have loved through the years. It was a cathartic piece of work for me to read and I thank you for that.

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. oh ... gosh ... i am not courageous enough to share my thoughts on the subject ... i guess i need to be more liberated to say what i want to say ... but i will say this ... this piece is brilliantly written ... the questions you're asking yourself and the reader are amazing ... they are critical existential questions ... IMHO ... and i think you'll find answers soon ... you're on the verge of finding them ...

[Stacey Watts]

This was very well written so many emotions in this one. We a lot of times can see the way things are through someone elses eyes. This was brilliant.