Why wish?

About my father..once again.

If I could change one thing,
It would be what I havent been able to do.
If someone would take me under their wing,
thats all I need.
To feel loved, to feel wanted,
but mostly to feel accepted,
as me, a person, to feel whole.
Somethings missing, I dont know what it is yet,
But I think its you.

I need to wake up to you, hear your voice,
See your face, is all I need.
I need to feel your skin against mine,
I need you to want me.
I know I have made mistakes,
I know i've messed up.
I can't stand it when I dont talk to you,
I miss you so much.
But you oviously don't want me.
only because, I havent showed you who I can be.

I can Love you, be with you, when your sad.
you only need to give me that chance.
But I know that will never happen.
How can I make you realize,
I still want you, I need you,
to be there with me through life.
I know you don't love me,
but maybe, one day, It might happen?
I doubt that though, you have had this long,
to show me, to know me, to be there.

Is it wrong? That for some reason,
I still want you in my life?
Now I am wondering, You have NEVER been there,
for me so why try, why bother?
Why hope, why wait, why wish,
for something that will
never happen. For someone who does not
want to see me grow, see me live.
Why don't you want me?