This Can't be Happening

I REFUSE TO LET THIS HAPPEN!!
I can't be....*gulp*
No...I won't say it..
I can't really be...in love with you
After every thing you did to me
You lied to me
Used me
Betrayed me
Toyed with my emotions
And you didn't even apologized
Laughed in my face.
And after all that
I can't hate you
WHY?!!
Oh goddess....I really did fall for you
THIS CAN'T BE!!!
Why'd it have to be you?
Anyone else but you
I can't stand it
But
I'm not fighting it either
I....I .... I love you
Is that so wrong?