Things I Should Feel But I Don't

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There are so many things i should feel but i don't
I should want you dead but i don't
I should hate your guts but i don't
I should want revenge for what you did but i don't
I guess you're seeing a pattern here
So many feelings of hate that should be inside me
But they're not
Why?
Because I'm one of the genuine
I'm the real one
I care....no...
I give a f**k

Yes yuffy I give a f**k....I still do
To be honest...I'm over it
But the fact remains that you had no right
No right to use me like you did
You're like the koala bear in my joke
But I'm no prostitute
Just a girl who fell under your spell

I should hate you Christopher
But I can't
Its not in my nature
Not in my heart
I just hate what you did
Truth be told
I still believe in you
I still wanna see you do well
I wanna help you in any way i can
I think you'll make a great psychologist
I don't love you
That's for damn sure
But

As I said before
I still give a f**k about you
Not care as much
I'm not home thinking
OMG are you okay?
But then again
I do worry sometimes
I'm a worrier
I told you this

The goddess said to me last night
"It is not in your nature to hate
Not in your nature to hold grudges
I want you to forgive
But never forget
Open your eyes
Not every man is a user like he
But not every man isn't

So to you Christopher Reid I say this:
I forgive you
I'll never forget
But I forgive you
I care....*stop saying care*
I give a f**k about your well being
You just used one of the most sincere
And I bet there were more
And I'm sorry for being so clingy
I really am

Blessed be.

Things I Should Feel by ~Airila3191

There are so many things i should feel but i don't  I should want you dead but i don't  I should hate your guts but i don't  I should want revenge for what you did but i don't  I guess you're seeing a pattern here  So many feelings of hate that should be inside me  But they're not  Why?  Because I'm one of the genuine  I'm the real one  I care....no...  I give a f**k   
Yes yuffy I give a f**k....I still do  To be honest...I'm over it  But the fact remains that you had no right  No right to use me like you did  You're like the koala bear in my joke  But

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There are so many things i should feel but i don't  I should want you dead but i don't  I should hate your guts but i don't  I should want revenge for what you did but i don't  I guess you're seeing a pattern here  So many feelings of hate that should be inside me  But they're not  Why?  Because I'm one of the genuine  I'm the real one  I care....no...  I give a f**k   
Yes yuffy I give a f**k....I still do  To be honest...I'm over it  But the fact remains that you had no right  No right to use me like you did  You're like the koala bear in my joke  But

 

  

 

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[Airila]

thanks...actually...yuffy and christopher reid are the same person....his nickname.... and i think i really have done a lot of self reflection...*omg now ur making me cry*

[WriterSki7]

Nicely put together. You put a lot of yourself out here . . . I recall a phrase in latin: 'Temet Nosce' meaning 'know thyself' (non-traditional Latin). You most certainly have done a lot of self-reflection. And to not feel things like hate and revenge . . . from all appearances you had truly fallen in love. True love, identified by the Greeks as 'Agape' meaning 'Unconditional love'. You loved that person (or persons, it's not terribly clear) unconditionally. that is why you lakc a feeling of revenge or hatred. And that is nothing you should be ashamed of.

You ma'am, truly have a heart of gold. I don't care what people say otherwise. That is how I interpet this poem and how I see you. Excellent work.

Sincerely,
Writer

[Airila]

hehe...experience is what i drew it from...this guy...i really loved him... i found out he'd only been using me for sex...filled my head with lies n bullshit...i made him sumn n he threw it away...n all this happened....from sunday
thanks much

[Sketch]

wow. This is deep and nicley put together. Great job. =) You set the tone really well and used good wording. I like.