The pitiful potholes of my life

I miss you

Haven't you noticed

I guess not

Since we haven't kept contact 

Throughout these elongated years

I asked if you missed me too

And you lied through your teeth

Telling me things will get better for now

You told me "leave it in the past"

As if I'll ever forget the past and focus on the futile future

You are not the only one who has sailed the seas of disappointment and shame

You are not the only one to be suffocated by insecurities

I shouldn't suffer for your consequences or pay your dues

I shouldn't let your cancerous case of vain seep into my brain 

And affect me with your toxic behavior

My face should illuminate like the sun when I hear your name

My heart should be punctured and swelled with love 

The sound of your voice is a blood curdling strain to my ears

Your portrait drives me to gouge my eyes out with my bare hands

We're close yet so far on the relationship map

Traveling on the train of forgiveness

Soaring through the sky on a plane, flight redemption 

But we always end up on the same recycling route

That never-ending road

Passing by the street points, doubt, misconception and hostility

I guess we will never know how to solve this insufferable game

Unless...You pick up the phone