What Is Happening

Love, your blankets are too dark,

I can't see your curves;

I know you're under there, 

Happy as ever, memories ready to share;

You never leave me alone,

My heart is always full;

Particles pass, and sometimes you shudder,

That's life in the storm;

The mind takes over,

And fears build their walls;

Protecting me from the biggest waves,

Alertness heightened;

Where did you go,

We have a storm to survive;

I'm getting more scared,

I need you now more than ever;

I'm starting to forget that you ever existed in the first place,

Were those stories and hugs lies?;

I'm drowning alone,

And there's no one around;

The fear hurts,

But it seems to be my only savior;

Let me close my eyes,

And allow my body to take over;

Clearing the mind, 

To feel and see the rhythm, of what;

A heavy bright star in the right eye,

passes all the way left;

Dad? Uncle Tom? My protectors? Is this a thing?,

Was that you?;

I'm back in bed, under the covers,

Safe, a cool breeze, comfortable in the darkness;

I feel the sheets move,

Or maybe I moved them;

It doesn't matter,

I'm with love;

And love is always with me.