I Hate Me

this poem isn't a personal one! one of my loyal readers asked me to write about this topic, i was inspired by her life story. as a poet i tried my best to write a powerful piece that could help her!

I walked a long way on a path that seemed familiar to me
I met some beings, who seemed honest to me,
I opened my mouth until my tooth of wisdom appeared
To all those whom launched a brilliant smile to me,
But who knew at that time, it was only a fateful virus
That had poisoned my mind and set it on blaze,
I had a kingdom I called dream,
A roof I called protection,
4 walls I called vista,
But it took just a gust of wind, for all this to fall apart
I saw everything I built, flown in pieces into different directions
But my eyes couldn't catch one f*****g patch until it all faded away
I tried to breathe the ashes of my soul
Which was badly charred in the cresset of my loss
Thinking that I could reborn it even though I was so damn doubting it babe,
S**t I’m so dumb that I’m going numb,
Simply because I sucked this odium left in the dust,
I tried to whine my bitterness hoping that I could seduce happiness,
But I woke up frozen on this cold ground called sorrow
So, I yelled 'I need you to save me, without you I'm nothing baby'
But I didn’t even know whom I'm calling,
I don't remember why I’m here,
I hate myself I hate me
I hate the fact that my heart is still beating
Despite this f*****g pain covering my body,
You told me once this life is a movie
Shoot it well or bury yourself in the obscurity,
So I climbed on this endless tower,
Waiting for your signal to awake my pulse
Maybe then I could love back who I am...