Life: A Reverse Nightmare (Chapter Two)A Story by P.M. TymesContinuation of my experimental writing on life through an autobiographical approach. Hope you enjoy! Constructive criticism is highly welcomed!Chapter Two: A relationship is
a truly peculiar thing. We often become
friends with those we spend the most time around. It’s like there’s something binding about
invading another human being’s personal bubble.
The majority of the time that this happens, we enjoy the other person’s
presence, but are there not times where we’re essentially coerced into a
friendship or at the very least a civil acquaintance? We all put up metaphorical social walls. So what exactly signals us to let someone
inside these walls? Social expectations
are part of the process. As members of
society, we’re at least expected to be polite in social situations and often
that means making small talk with other members of society. Imagine this as greeting and welcoming a new
neighbor to the neighborhood with the walls we put up representing our house in
the neighborhood. We’re (at least for the moment) in the neighborhood of others
so it’s the polite thing to welcome them to said neighborhood. However, friendship takes it further. With friendship, you’re letting the person inside your house. A boundary gets crossed and because of what?
Is it personality? Maybe a social connection to someone else who you’ve let in
your house that can vouch for them? Regardless,
there they are. At first they might be a
little timid, asking to go to the bathroom or if they can grab a beer from the
fridge. Then, some time passes and they
grow comfortable with your house. You’ll
find them putting their feet up on the table and their arms behind their head,
making themselves at home. The
transition from fear of the unknown to total comfort will go entirely
unnoticed. You won’t think to ask yourself
perfectly valid questions like, “Did I do a background check on them?” and “Did
I check them at the door for weapons?”
Even if you do, what difference would it make? They’re already in your home and because of
what? A social norm? An unwritten rule
that states as humans, we have to be social creatures? The fact of the matter is that no matter who
you let into that house of yours, something is going to get broken. It may be something as small and
insignificant as a vase or it might be something as substantial as your sense
of security, a feeling that the naïve take for granted. I may be rambling and you may not even be
listening by this point, but if there’s one point I want you as the reader to
get from this incoherent jumbled up mess of words, it’s this: The best of your friends will merely break
the vase, but the most passionate of your lovers will take your sense of
security. When that summer
of bliss and young love ended, I was left with surprisingly a lot for a tale
that foreshadowed woe as often as the last chapter did. I was still in a relationship with the girl
of my dreams, I had friends I thought would last a lifetime, and school was
never much of a challenge for me. However,
making predictions about the future based on a snapshot from the timeline of
your life is a dangerous thing. The
first couple months of school were an adjustment for me. This was the first time in my life that I had
had a serious girlfriend during the school year and she had a thing against
public displays of affection that made it hard to stay as close as we were in
the summer. We were slipping apart in
many ways those first couple months. I
won’t act like there weren’t warning signs because there were. There were many. The problem wasn’t that I didn’t recognize
the signs. It was that I didn’t know
what to do about them. So I chose to
make the passive decision of ignoring them and waited for a better day to show
up on the horizon. Ever notice how when
there’s s****y weather for a few days we just get used to it? The first day or two we wake up and expect
the weather to have turned around only to be disappointed when we walk outside
or check the weather report to see that nothing’s changed. Eventually, we expect it to remain miserable
and at a certain point we almost come to terms with it and embrace it. Day after day of these bleak days in my life,
I just prepared myself for the next one.
I didn’t try to fix tomorrow, I just prepared myself for it. Some people think that the worst thing that
can happen in a relationship is when a couple fight, but there’s actually
something much worse. Fighting at least
demonstrates that both parties in the relationship feel there’s something worth
fighting for still. What should worry
someone in a relationship the most is when the fighting stops and the distance
grows. It’s when both parties accept defeat
in a relationship that it is on an irreversible pathway to splitsville. This does not necessarily mean the spark that
once existed between the two will never return though. In fact, in the weeks after the break up, if
the couple truly loved each other, the spark will come back and it will come
back rejuvenated and with a little more wisdom.
I believe that a lot of our future actions are dictated by emotions and
feelings that we experienced in the past.
Once a couple experiences what it’s like without each other, they’ll use
that feeling to fuel the relationship in its second stint. Instead of breaking up when the union gets a
little dull and burnt out, they’ll stick with it knowing from experience that
the grass really isn’t greener on the other side. This theory works just fine with two rational
individuals, but what me and her were at that age was anything but rational. ~~~ Innocence is tragic in the sense
that by the time you realize what it is, you’ve already lost it ~~~ P.M. Tymes © 2013 P.M. Tymes |
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Added on September 29, 2013 Last Updated on September 29, 2013 Tags: life, autobiography, young, love, drama AuthorP.M. TymesAboutI'm a 19 year old college student who really is struggling to find his niche in the world. I write what I write in spurts, usually fueled by depression or irrational bliss more..Writing
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