The Hardest Thing To Do

I’m trying my hardest to let her go.
I keep telling myself, “It’s what she wants.”
My brain says, “Move on.” But my heart says no.
The longing returns after every jaunt.
I want to be happy and just forget.
I long to be strong minded and strong willed.
But my heart won’t release all this regret
Of that night our relationship was killed.
I want her here so I can hold her tight
And her to hold me with her warm embrace.
I’m trying to let go with all my might,
But when I close my eyes, I see her face.
It strikes me with fear to try love again.
Will I move on? I am wondering when…