#33- A Little Bit More.

Thoughts on progress and things to come.

Momentary slip ups, aside--

I feel a little bit stronger 

Everday, Miss.

A little bit happier.

Maybe.

A little bit more human.

Got a bottle 

Of the fancy shampoo

I used to use.

Hair felt amazing

After getting used 

To all the cheap stuff

For so many months.

Had to reach low 

In the aisle

At the grocery store.

Pants felt like 

They were starting

To slip.

Didn't really notice

I was getting

Much thinner

Until now.

Just moments later,

Got a look or two

From some woman

In the check out aisle.

Strange.

Realized after the fact

That I was smiling.

Kept smiling

On the way home

From my errands.

Knowing I might have 

A chance 

To do something

With you

Tonight

If I get all my stuff done

In time.

I feel good, today, Miss.

Things have been going well

Between us 

For the most part.

Almost like they were

Before.

But even if 

There's a little less

"Us," now,

Than there was 

A few months ago.

It's clear to me

That this time

There's 

A little bit more

"Me" now.  

I remember 

Being so depressed

When I told you 

A bit over a month ago

That I didn't think

I'd be in any condition

To go to that convention

We were hyping up

Later this year.

And I remember thinking 

How dumb it felt 

To be bringing up 

Something 

So trivial.

Especially, after everything

That happened.

I suppose--the other night--

Hearing you say that you 

Were excited to go 

To next year's convention

After we both 

Get our s**t together...

I guess 

I'm pretty excited 

To see what kind of man 

I will be 

Next year.  

And I really hope 

You'll be there

To see it, too,

Miss.

Author's Note

Not much to say about this one. I think at this point, I've developed enough of a sense of personal voice and style, that I just keep working on refining what I can do.