Part Of My Life~

This is a little something of my story. Its more like a rap, But its how i wrote it.

My life has been a tough one.
The amount of times i wanted to run.

Standing there with the rope hanging around my neck.
I was a f*****g emotional wreck. 

When i was younger i didn't understand but when i grew up i saw what had been planned.

My childhood was s**t.
I used to say something and get hit.
I had no friends i was a loner. 
Used to get bullied by everyone. 

I wanted to end my life with a gun.

My brother came along.
After awhile i was smoking a bong.
The path were i thought id belong.

My mother, the psychotic b***h took away my brother.
Sitting there smoking as a living.
Forgiving you will never happen. 
Not what you did to me. 

You gave me scars, made me bleed and you hit the f**k outta me.
Thought we were a family.
But now I'm happily free. 

My head was loosing it.
The thought again came along i wanted to commit.
My wrists were always slit.
I hated my life, every last bit.

I went down the wrong path again.
I got addicted and started being a s**t.
Once i got a reputation i was known as the filthy mutt.
I didn't know how to live my life in the right, So i did in the wrong.
I thought to escape my problems was with c**k and a cigarette.
Or with a drink and some brew.
I didn't know what the f**k to do.

I ran away. but that just made everything come back.
My life got over taken, s**t got legal. 

My depression got turned into aggression
And i really didn't make the best first impression.
At counselling i never learnt a f*****g lesson so it just went on.

Bad memories came back.
The old guys who made me sleep with them in bed.

And plead to give them head. 

The thought came to my dead friend.

The one that lead me to humiliation and no communication.

The punch on's, the suicidal times.

When i just needed someone, But no one was ever there. 

When i was most alone,
I got to the point where i had no flesh but just bone.
And i wasn't prone.

At one stage when i was down.
There was only one place to go.
And that was to sit and talk to my little bro.
Without an answer i got a smile.
My brain had made a file with his name on it.
Because when he smiled.
It too made me do the same.

After i went to hell and back.
I went to the opposite.
I turned to God.
He was my only saviour. 

My life got changed.
Like my life sorta got arranged.
I still have problems to this day.
But i think it out and pray.
I cry even if i try not to.
Its the way i stay stable. 

I don't care if i cry.
I just let out a sigh and let life go by.

Reviews

[Jordan's Back]

Reputations are often given to people by people who choose to look on the outward surface of things and never truly get to know the person they are labeling. Jesus Said it best, "Judge not lest ye be judged. For with what manner ye judge ye shall be judged also." Matthew 7:1-2. You may not be religious and I wont push my faith on you. It is still good Philosophy. You had allot going on. It doesnt make you a "filthy mutt" or a "s**t" it makes you a human being that needs to be loved, listened too and accepted for whom they are.

I personally for one am sorry you ever had to go through any of this. This is allot of stuff. and I know all to well the scars that stem from a sketchy past. Although not similar issues, the hurt can sometimes cause a reader to relate to those things you mentioned. This is one of those times.

I felt this piece was deep and concise and deserves a 100/100 all the way. Excellent job!

[Overrated-World]

Thank you so much, It means alot to me. :) i am religious and i love it.
Gives me such motivation.!!

[Jordan's Back]

My inbox is always open to you :)

[Astrid Elaine]

This was really honest and raw; there was a story to it but also an emotional release. It was really good :)

[Overrated-World]

Thank you for the positive feedback. Means alot :)

[InsanityWriter]

Amazing poem. :) You've got real talent, and I can tell that this is from the heart. There's so much power and emotion! (: Excellent job. Keep writing!!

[Overrated-World]

Thank you so much, means so much to me that you say that.
I promise i will :)

[InsanityWriter]

^_^

[Lewis Davis-Norman]

So raw, honest and powerful. What a brilliant write.

[Overrated-World]

Thank you Lewis.
I love that you have reviewed my work. Thank you for doing so. :)

[KeeD]

Well written, had a good almost lyrical flow to it. I like the far cry effect to it as in the condition your in today is far better than what it used to be because you were strong enough to turn your life around. Respect to you for finding faith. It takes a lot of courage to devote yourself completely and even more to stand by it. 100/100
Upload more of your work when you can, I'd love to read it. Even if it's non poetry related and just your rap lyrics. -Kee

[Overrated-World]

Thank you heeps Kee. I appreciate you taking the time to read it.
I will upload some more asap. :)
Thanks again, means alot.!!

[KeeD]

Was my pleasure. yeah for sure hit me up with a read request once you have new stuff up. xoxo Kee

[Carolann Dowsett]

This is so deep and beautiful good on you for turning your life around.

[Overrated-World]

Only with your help, Your the best mother i have ever have. and without your assistance i would never of had the moment to write this piece of work.
Your the one to be grateful for helping me change my life, and of course God.!!

[Carolann Dowsett]

Awww thank you so much honey. I'm proud to call you my new daughter. The future is bright darling, no more of the bad stuff, all light and joy from here :) xxx