Once Again

I face it every day. You’re the one that’s forgetting.

How can you stop thinking of someone when they were the only one there in your craziest times?

How do you keep your heart from becoming Cold and Hard again?

How do you deal with yourself for Trusting some stranger?

The whole time perceiving what they were really there for, but not caring and bringing down almost every wall, letting them into your deepest fears, your craziest ideas and your most malevolent demons.

Taking off the mask that you wear with the world, only because at first, this person seemed as unimportant.and as irrelevant as chipping paint off the wall of an abandoned warehouse.  

But what happens when you started something  that you swore wasn't going to get anywhere but ends up pulling at the calloused, peeling pieces of your heart?

Its only when you open up to someone do you really know how vulnerable you really are.

How can your heart not become calloused or hard again? Maybe it never got too dangerously soft to begin with?

How do you stop it from becoming complete Stone?

This is why I keep my guard up at all times. I feel stupid to let Any one in. I’m such an idiot.

Why don’t I ever listen when God speaks? Or when anyone speaks?

Now I’m stuck here, trying to ignore in every possible way, the gaping, sore, inflamed, bleeding wound/hole inside my chest where my heart is supposed to be, that has always seem to be there but now, it finally has gotten my attention; I just don’t know what to do to take care of it.

I don’t ever say anything to anyone, except that one person.

But it seems like it was the Worst Mistake I could’ve made.

Falling, over and over, thinking and hoping that it’ll bring us “together”, but I made myself blind to see that I was just a failed target. Just another one that fell into his charm, just another that fell into his trap … But just another that knew exactly what he was doing, knew exactly what I fell into, but decided to look past all that, into his heart, if there ever was one.  

 

Author's Note

Please ignore the mistakes or unfinished ideas in some of the sentences.
I was just trying to express myself...

Reviews

[Inject Positivity]

I can feel the emotions and the heartbreak of the poet... You have expressed yourself so very well... "but decided to look past all that, into his heart" this part feels so very touching to me... This is how the greatest souls love, they look beyond the outside brokenness of the soul... It's never easy to express ourselves with this much honesty and you did that here so very well...

Sincerely
Dhiman

[The OutKasted]

Thank you, so, SO much