That girl

How could you help someone so broken? You didn't have to but you did so anyways.

I did it. 

I hurt you while hurting myself in the process.

I hurt myself day after day and you are the only person that I never wanted to hurt. I didn't expect for you to care that much because I've never really had anyone care for me as much as you do. 

Everyday I die a little bit in the inside (literally). I smoke, started at 14 years old and stopped for a while after you asked me to. I listened to you and I didn't take your concern for granted. I loved it actually, I loved having someone care about me. Even though we haven't known each other for long at all I fell for you. I actually felt something colorful inside me for once in my miserable, disgusting, and worthless life. 

I love you just as much as I love myself when I finally realized that I meant something. I'm a woman, scarred and broken but I need you to help me fix myself. I finally feel like I need to change not only for you but also for me. I've been carrying around the weight of my past for years and for the first time I feel like I'm not carrying anything at all, even an ounce. You hate me smoking and I never liked it either but it's just a habit that I've gotten used to after all these years, but if it's something that can lead to you leaving me then I'll make more than just an effort to change it.

You're my light and I never want to let that go. If I lose you then I lose myself just when I started to get acquainted with who I really am. I'm not the girl who gets taken advantage of, I'm not the girl who sits in her room crying and waiting for something to change, I'm not the girl who doesn't care about herself, or the girl who never tries. I WAS that girl but that's not who I really am. I'm a girl who takes action to make her life better for her and everyone else in it, I'm the girl who knew worse but now knows better, I'm the girl who now believes in destiny and that life really does have meaning, I'm the girl who fell in love with herself just by falling in love with you. 

You have no idea how much you mean to me. Every look, every word, every move, and every breath you take is like watching the most beautiful sunrise. It's like watching something come out from the dark and give light to every dark corner in this dreadful world. I never knew that I could love myself and I never knew that I could stop my past from haunting me. 

A victim of rape of sexual assault, a former drug user, a person who never cared about herself or the people who wanted to love her. Do you know what you did to that girl? You gave her life and you helped her lift the weights off her back one by one. You made her realize that she's not alone in this life and that she doesn't have to feel like she is. You brought out her strengths and her flaws all at once and you gave her meaning. 

You didn't have to do any of that, you just had to listen to her, but you helped her. You helped a girl who has never been helped, you helped the girl that almost gave up on herself and you gave her the hope that she lacked to make it through every night.  

Reviews

[Madilyn]

This was really moving, thank you.

[Island Hippy]

Aloha, a very powerful story. Told with an honesty that conveys the emotion and gratitude felt for this person. Giving someone your time and a kind encouraging word, that has healing in it. We all need that at some time. Uplifting story. Izzy

[Ossicedia]

Thank you so much Izzy. This person will always be someone who I will always appreciate daily.
read moreThank you so much Izzy. This person will always be someone who I will always appreciate daily.
Once again thank you for the thoughtful review :)

[Island Hippy]

You're welcome

[Coyote Poetry]

A powerful tale written. People need kindness and concern to heal. The story led the reader to realistic ending. Thank you for sharing the amazing story.
Coyote

[Ossicedia]

Thank you so much for your review Coyote!

[Coyote Poetry]

A worthwhile read and you are welcome.