Jealousy

 

Jealousy

 

For so long

Too long

I have watched my friend

Court the woman

I had fallen so far for

For all this time

Too much time

I have stood by

Watching

Wishing

Dreaming

Staying silent

Because I knew

They were happy

And I was glad for them,

Or, at least,

I thought I was

But, I couldn’t tell

What was inside my heart

It was small to start

Undetected

A small bead

That formed

Deep inside

Filled with unimaginable heat

Burning darkly

With a malicious red glow

Each and every time

I saw them together

Happy and carefree

That bead grew

Filling me more and more

Straight to the brink and brim

A glowing

White hot

Molten substance

Burning me up

From inside out

To a hollow shell of myself

Before it flows

Into a crucible

Becoming a fiery blade

That pierces my heart

Twisting painfully

Each time I see them

Together

Fiery thoughts

Of violence

Anger

Hatred

Betrayal

Burn a blinding path

Through my mind

Caught in the irrational grasp

Of jealousy.

 

Orpheus the Dark

May 20, 2008

8:39 a.m.

“Long Live The

Barbed Wire King”