Monster in me

This is a song about basically fighting with myself. It may be disturbing in some areas, so I apologize in advance if this offends you!

The monster in me:

Who am i what have i done
Bloods on the floor hands on the gun
Searching for the subject ended up staring in the mirror
Demons all surround me, but i am my own fear
My hands act as minions with my mind being the dictator
No longer in control bc my brain is poisoned by the liquor
Mind over matter but matter flooded my mind
Now thoughts are overflowing and eating my insides
I could of changed the future but i am stuck in the past
Trying to reach the present but cant figure out where i left off last

Chorus: Cue the lightning, cue the thunder
Hold that sunshine im far too down under
Fussing with every breath choking on the air
Questioning my exsistance and why im even here
Used to feel the love but now im drowning in the pain
Trying to fight this monster, but the monsters in me

Walking down this dark alley, hoping to find the forbidden light
Getting lost in the darkness, but i only escape at night
Watching my life go by like windows on a moving train
Trying to find a different route but there is no switch to this lane
Praying to god but he has his head phones on
Screaming so loud but no one can hear a sound
To smile it hurts when your forced to frown
And my soul is laying in the lost and found
I once was lost circling round and round
But my path is a circle so i remain unfound
If i wanted too, i could
I think i can i think i can
Drown in my own good


Chorus: Cue the lightning, cue the thunder
Hold that sunshine im far too down under
Fussing with every breath choking on the air
Questioning my exsistance and why im even here
Used to feel the love but now im drowning in the pain
Trying to fight this monster, but the monsters in me

I have created the beast within
My chances of hope are running thin
no one is too blame but myself
And maybe this is why i do not ask for help
The human brain is beyond genious
Yet im using my mind to burn my own bridges
I could of cleaned up the blood but instead i mark x's on my face
Screaming i surrendor
I give you my life to take
This lonely soul is no longer needed
Take this beating heart and defeat it
Life is a game and i found the loop hole
F**k this world im done playing this sick role

Chorus x2: Cue the lightning, cue the thunder
Hold that sunshine im far too down under
Fussing with every breath choking on the air
Questioning my exsistance and why im even here
Used to feel the love but now im drowning in the pain
Trying to fight this monster, but the monsters in me

X2^: "the monster has always been in me"

Author's Note

Please ignore grammar/spelling errors.