Why??

Why did things have to be this way..

You push me away
You say it's okay
You told me to go away
You said I don't need you

Are any of your words true?
Would you do this to your own?
Have you reaped what you've sewn?
Have you seen the real color of my eyes?
Or are you buried among your own lies
I sit alone in a dark corner, buried by my tears
I found out that you were the worst of my fears
Would you take that bullet for me or let me drown
In my own blood and watch how I go down as a clown

I keep dreaming about you and it never goes away
I never know if things will ever be okay
Your presence, your touch.. is mesmerizing
The way you move and how I feel you rising
It grabs me by the chest and it's hypnotizing
Your love was once true and I always loved you
But you threw me away like you had no clue
I question the times I had with you
I question why you hate me like you do
I question why couldn't I fix the situation
I always see you during my times of meditation
You were my love, You were God's creation
And you threw it all away like I was nothing
Left me to bleed and die in suffering