Pain Redefined

Feeling the bitter old pain.
The memories that always remain.
Killing myself again and again.
I am stuck with this wicked sin.
Why do these thoughts follow me?
Why can I not be set free.
The feelings are built up inside.
There is no room for them to hide.
They show themselves in my music.
With every stroke of my pic.
I form new rhythms when I play.
Tones that change night and day.
I can't explain myself by talking.
I feel the people behind me mocking.
Writing myself on paper.
I dissapear into a cold vapor.
Some people can see.
They just always leave me.
I am who I am.
I do not give a damn.
You can like me or hate me.
If you don't like me just let me be.
I can be your worst enemy or your best friend.
In your life I will be there like a GodSend.
I am loyal to my true friends.
It all just depends.
Wether you want me or not.
I have learned what God has taught.
To be wise and not a fool.
To remain calm and keep my cool.
I pray day and night.
For help in my daily fight.
He is my true friend everyday.
I never want to stray away.
The evil feelings I feel.
Are inside and put into a seal.
I walk at night.
Because I hate the light.
I like the darkness.
I feel so heartless.
Alone but with God inside.
Remaining humble and destroying my pride.
I want to give to the world.
I put my troubles onto my Lord.
Forever in peace.
That will always remain and never cease.

Reviews

[FoolsGold23]

Bravo!! In our darkest recesses, He always seems to find us and persevere with us, though we may not feel like a saint, He believes in us. You've communicated being in the depths of doubt and discouragement well, powerful and raw, but also giving us the Valid reason that you persevere, God's with you and because you know you've so much more to give. Excellent!