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https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=vGIAO5Uz1Us&ab_channel=alt-J-Topic

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It took me quite some time

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To reconcile

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That justice had really died -

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Or more,

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That it was instead, dead,

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And had either died long ago,

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Or was never really alive to begin with.

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I could count for you the lessons, though,

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Count the times that its death throes -

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As a sense of rightness, had begun to perish

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Within me, within my belief -

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Coiled into an empty vacuum

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In the wake of such fatal awareness 

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And awakening such tempestuous grief.

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I think it really started

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When I learned the truth about police -

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When I remember that while I was dying,

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Maimed in a gutter 

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With a stranger gripping my open artery,

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That there was a cop parked

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Just up the way.

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And that Jess had gone to him first, 

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Before running back to Cliff and me;

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That while he and I were screaming,

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And bleeding, thinking that we may really die -

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His foot hanging by its achilles,

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My left arm gone

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And my left leg wrapped into a pretzel -

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That the cop was still in his car,

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On the radio, maybe even to an ambulance,

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Waiting.

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That the f****r just sat there 

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And waited.

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Because he wasn’t getting paid enough

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To have to see s**t like that,

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That it wasn’t his responsibility to help us.

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Yeah,

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I expect that’s when I first started to realize 

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That something was really wrong

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With this world 

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That we all now openly portend 

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To being forced to have to live in.

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Author's Note

(This'll be my last for a while)

Reviews

[Wórdsmíth]

quite interesting... i like when people/writers like you come up with such stuffs that specifically portray the truth of harsh reality.

i have notice most of your poetry are untiled or written without any title. i am curious to know if there's any essential reason behind that?

[Ookpik]

It's pretty simple really - they're just unpublished.

If ever I tried to submit to magazines or the like, I expect I'd have no choice and would eventually have to title them. But for now, and given that I don't neccesarily have to, I just use the elipses to indicate intentional omission.

I think I'm just trying to remind myself not to take any one work all that seriously, and that a website like this is more a means to an end then it is the end all itself.

Appreciate the question though, and your stopping by to read.

-Ook