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https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=XoQvbDROucQ

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When I was young

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Being soft was a detriment -

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It was how you were forced to think;

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You'd differentiate solely between supple and steel

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With the differential left at home.

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You couldn't afford to bring it with you.

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You were either prepared or you weren't.

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I started soft. 

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But when I left I was leather.

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It doesn't work like that here.

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In the south, that's not how people function.

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It's a shame really, 

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You cultivate the in-between -

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Salt, fat and sugar -

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And leave the hard at home.

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I don't think I would have survived that car accident

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If I hadn't have known otherwise.

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I wouldn't have thought to crawl.

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I wouldn't have known to stay awake.

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It's likely I would have just kept calling for help

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Until the sound faltered in my throat.

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The thing about dying

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That most people don't understand,

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Is that it's easy.

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You just let it come.

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You just lay there and let it fold over you -

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Like a numb blanket,

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Like morphine.

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It's far harder to stay awake.

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And this place seems to want to tempt you

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Into laying still and doing nothing -

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Into tucking yourself in for daybreak.

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