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https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=dDugzEevc_A

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I wonder if I truly miss her

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Or if I just miss the idea of her.

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I wonder if it had anything to do with her -

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The moments,

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The cumulative years,

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The suffering, the hospital,

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Her form by my bedside,

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Our tears shed in communion.

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I think I miss being cared for,

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The way she cared for me.

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I think I miss the act of missing her

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Unequivocally.

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I don't really think about her anymore.

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But when I do I wonder why.

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After all,

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I was the one that left.

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It was me that gave goodbyes.

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