THE DEMON WITHIN

THE DEMON WITHIN

He watches through my eyes and feels every feeling that comes to me

every pain and anger he uses aginst me for me

every feeling of happyness he treasures because it's the only peace that we get

he protects me from the most painfull things and gives me the power to take it

at the cost of my own happyness and sanity my only bit of humanity

many want me to be rid of him but I do not as much as the pain hurts inside he helps make it go away

even as it is turned to anger I would rather feel anger than continue to feel the pain

I could kill without remorse

tourcher without regret

cause unemaginable pain onto others without thinking of their feelings

as my concence slowly dissappears

and my emotions go numb

nothing is left but stillness

no pain

no happiness

no suffering

just rage

I've known it would one day be the death of me

but never did I think I would make it this far without dieing more than once

but now I'm at the edge hanging by a moment

with noone to confort me

no one to hold me in my time of need

noone cares noone even stops to ask anymore

weather the theripsist or family or friends say the same damn s**t about the world being better

they just don't see the truth that it's only better when people care about you

my friends say they care and that may be but I cannot ask them to do what a lover should

my family cares but is too busy with their own life to knotice or perhaps I've just been this way so long that they can't see

that I could use what ever caring they can give

but no noone knows the sorrow I've felt and seen

and I hope that noone has to go through the same hell I'm going through and have

because for one to go through this kind of hell would surly want death more than life

but I cannot die because my beast won't let me

it's got too much of a hold on me

sad to think I'm a prisoner of myself

but then I could be the only one to make such a prison to hold me

and I can say that this is a living HELL!!!!