BROKEN

You told me once that you loved me more than anything

and that you would forever and always

but now you say nothing instead you just leave

with a simple confession

one that I'm greatfull for but hate more than I thought I would

now I sit here drowning in crys of sorrow

as the howls reach the sky the wolves sing along

as the beast inside festers and enjoys the meal which I give it the meal that you made

all alone I'm broken inside no heart left just empty space where one once was

it kills a man when he spends his life in darkness never seeing the light

he hates all around him and feeds his anger on anything that creates it

the smallest morsel is a delicasy to the beast that waits

deep in the darkness he has sat waiting draining all thoughts of happiness and hope of a better life

continuousely changing the outside every thought and emotion that goes through me now turns to one

constant fuel for him he grows stronger as each day passes

and nomatter how much I try I cannot deny that the changes only worsen my chances of finding happiness if that even exists anymore

I have but two choises

embrace him or fight him

to embrace him is simply but at the greatist cost

but to fight him is hard and impossable to defeat

the evil learking inside calls out for rage

constantly craving all the worst sins of the world

mostly to do with blood and violence

I try harder everyday to keep him at bey

but soon I won't be able to hold him back

I will loose all who care for me and all who ever would

all I can do is stay in the shadows

as my life passes before me

another dark deppression I hoped I would never have to go through another one

but it seems I have no choise it's ither forget about emotions and focuse on myself

or embrace them as they destroy what happiness I've found

it's easy to hate and easy to love but love is easier to fall for hate

because love never ends in a happy way as I see the bottom of every bottle

I slowly begin to feel nothing the way I want to feel about everything I don't want to feel anymore

I don't want to stress or worry or love or hate dispise or yern I want one thing to feel numb

nothing ....... Nothing......NOT A DAMN THING!!!!!