To: The Dragonking

Summer 2011

I have these dreams of you
the kind that won't leave my mind for days
It's always your kisses and your eyes
those tumbling blue waves
that beg me to remember that I loved you once
with the force of a thousand sunsets
and a love like that never goes away

These dreams are so powerful
They leave my heart pounding
and my soft hands grabbing
for a boy who no longer looks upon me
a boy who convinced himself that
I was a mere star among brighter stars
in a black ocean sky full of glimmering lights

I lay there in bed sometimes
minutes after waking from my slumber
and I feel like you just left the room
I lay there and I try desperately not to loose them,
the memories of these dreams of you
I have nothing in real life to replace them with
and so I hug them tightly to my chest
hoping to breath life into them
like you breathed life into my lips

I feel like I’ve been traveling from pillar to post
But everywhere I go,
incessantly I’m haunted by your ghost

I can conquer anything except your absence
it's eating away at me every year that passes

I watch the weather in Oklahoma sometimes
just to see if it's snowing in your hometown
I wonder how your family is doing
and what they think of your new haircut and clothes
I wonder if their son ever told them about the girl
who painted landscapes and metaphoric frescoes
of her love for such a handsome cowboy

And my Texas heart
has seen wars and famine and violence
but nothing compares to the silence
you left me with when you went away
You packed up the warmth of your smile
the passion in your arms
and set afloat on the cool ice blue in your eyes
to a place that I can never reach

I just keep thinking of your face
so close to mine that i couldn't tell
where my smile ended, and yours started
and it was your eyes, so penetrating and blue,
wrapping me up in the warmth of your adoration
and now I am so cold here without you

I feel like I’ve been traveling from pillar to post
But everywhere I go,
incessantly I’m haunted by your ghost