WAKING TO DARKNESS

The haunt of clinical depression and the final goodbye.....

WAKING TO DARKNESS

Waking to darkness, another day begins and the
Place you dreamed of seems a closer possibility
Like the nearness of death and walking
Backwards thinking of someone to blame

Like everything that came before, you just try
To get through the day while moving forward and
Thinking back to a time you did not move at all...
At once the sequence of a distant time returns

A time that forces itself into every empty breath
You take and that lonely memory of watching him struggle
And feeling his pain and hearing the last audible sound
Escape the confines of his mortal lips which are now...

Stilled and cold holding my final, terminal remaining hope
***
In loving memory of my son
Rodney Alan Peeples
April 12, 1967 - September 21, 2011

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[emmajoy]

Your words are so dark and intense, that, surely, they have to be true? The going back and forth over experiences and feelings as you have conjur up a loss of self and to/for me, not knowing how to find recovery and normality - whatever that is under the circumstances. A brave piece though sad, sad, sad.

[Miss Sharon]

Thank you so much Emmajoy for your kind review...and yes, this is a true experience as I stood by my son's hospital bed and saw him release his last breath on this planet. It has been 5 years since that fateful day and yet for me it seems like yesterday. The pain and the tears are still fresh. Thak you again for your response to this write. ~Sharon

[emmajoy]

To write as you have took so much courage... and, in some ways, perhaps, gave a touch of relief. read moreTo write as you have took so much courage... and, in some ways, perhaps, gave a touch of relief.
Maybe - if it can exist.

[Miss Sharon]

Yes...I have found it helpful and therapeutic to "write out" the pain. Thank you so much for the support of my writing! ~Sharon

[emmajoy]

(You) - must get to work in a few minutes.. God bless you...

[Lydia Shutter]

The intensity of the emotional pain comes through loud and clear in every line. You cannot erase the memory of a loved one dying. Not even sure you would want to. You want to help...do anything you possibly can....to take away their pain. Unfortunately, there is nothing you can do. I know you were there and gave him your love and support and that was all you could do. Writing like this is hopefully a catharsis for you. Lydi**

[Miss Sharon]

What a beautiful and compassionate response to this write my sweet friend. I appreciate you more than words can convey. And yes...to "write it out" IS indeed therapeutic for me. ~Sharon

[Lydia Shutter]

((((Sharon))))) I remember.

[Miss Sharon]

I know...and that is only one of the many things hat make you such a good friend. You care...and I thank you! ~SP

[Shabeeh Haider]

Sad....very very sad. When your loved one takes his final breath and you watch him die then there is darkness all around you forever and ever.
There are some people who leave you but their loss can never be overcome.

[Miss Sharon]

You indeed have captured the pain my words express...and have done so with compassion and kindness. Thank you! ~Sharon