Pain In My Soul

I've felt pain in the deepest corners of my soul. 

Suffocating and engulfing me with the sensations of dying. 

Creating a black hole around my mind and feeling as if nothing can stay. 

That I have no capabilities of attachment. 

I've seen what it's like inside my head when nothing is left to subside. 

Darkness overflows my memories and paints my thoughts black. 

I was unable to reminisce in ideas of the present, because I was stuck inside a cage. 

I was withering beneath the strong, sharp claws of a sparrow whispering, 

"Just let go. Do not allow yourself to move forward. Do not regain strength. Just stop." 

I have closed my eyes before, and I have seen that wallowing bird. 

I believed it to be the last I would ever see of another living creature. 

Its beady, red eyes staring into me as it removes my last ditch efforts. 

Then in that moment my eyes burst open.

Sweat runs down my cheek as I breathe heavily.