Would I Be Happier?

Would I be happier

I don't know if I would
If I remembered to keep my posture
If I remembered to knock on wood

If only I had kept myself together
Perhaps then I'd be understood
If only I had pushed myself a little further
Perhaps then it would all be good

If only I had fought for the will in my heart
And all the desires within
If only I had nurtured and cared for my dreams
Instead of leaving them thin

Would I be happier if the skies were bluer
Rather than covered by clouds and rainfall
Would I be happier if I had loved and lost
Or if I had chosen to not love at all

Would it be different if nothing changed
If I had managed to stay the same
If I had studied and worked a little more
If I had never gone insane

Would things be better and life merrier
Would I be happy and bright
Would I eventually overcome my inner barrier
Filled with doubt and fright

Would I be happier if I managed it all
Acted the way that I should
Be happy to fight for something I loved
I really wish that I could



But I don't know if I would.

Reviews

[John the Baptist]

Nicely rhymed. Regrets usually solve nothing.

[Omikron]

Thanks. No they do not, and yet I think we find ourselves a bit addicted to the pained memory they bring, a feeling that's hard to shake, at least for me.