Weakness

A Poem by Lynn

Feelings after a break up. Of loneliness and the process of healing.

There's so much pain.
It makes sense to the heart
but not to the brain.
When his heart is so selfish,
there's only room for one in the relationship.
Where do I go.
Nonexistence. Emptiness
seems to swallow me whole.
Where is the love
when I feel so alone.
The cuts in my soul seep to my skin.
Trust issues,
daddy issues,
depression.
I wish I were thin.
It's a daily battle within.
So much pressure to conform
people lose who they are.
Memories cling to the pain
instead of realizing it's a scar.
A permanent part of your past,
but the pain doesn't last.
Embrace your future
and be proud of where you came from.
Strength is the ability
to put your heart on your sleeve.
This isn't foolishness,
it's the power to believe.
To get back up
when someone tears you down.
You can push a good woman so far
before she gives up the fight.
Maybe you still care,
but when tears outweigh smiles
something isn't right.
Sitting in the cold
tears streaming
thinking damn.
Tried to meet him halfway
but he was walking a different direction.
This isn't who I am.
Worn out from childish games.
I tried so hard but failed.
All I wanted was to earn his last name.