To My Mother

A sad poem about a child's love for their mother and their struggles to be worthy of that love. Made for Sadness Contest

To My Mother

by omegax45

 

To my mother

You are the world to me

You were the first person to believe in me

To encourage me

To always have my back

 

I am so sorry that I wasn’t what you expected of me

You told me it wasn’t my fault

You blame yourself for it

But it never will be your fault

The fault is mine

 

I didn’t stand up for myself enough

I quit when things became too tough and I ran out of options

My disabilities are no excuses

You did all you could with what we had

Sometimes love and support are not enough

 

I wanted so much to pay you back Mother

I wanted to give you so much

But it always felt so short, so pathetic

When others can give you more than I could

I hate myself for that

 

I wish I could’ve made your life better

I wish I had been more determined against all odds

I wish I could’ve been like your other children

But I can only be me and you accepted me

It made me happy

 

But I hurt you Mother

I made you cry

I was frustrated with myself

I wish I could take the words back

But once said cannot be unsaid

 

And so I must leave you Mother

Not to the afterlife as you may fear

But to go live on my own

To learn on my own

To fight on my own

 

I love you Mother and I’m so sorry

But I don’t love myself

I have to learn how to love myself and to find my own success

And when I do

I will come home

 

Author's Note

Words of Wisdom: If people accept you for who you are, you don't need to force yourself into being someone you're not. And if people can't accept you for who you are, they are not worth trying to impress. Above all, accept yourself. Have a good day.