4 AM EST

I long for you 

and longing is not the same as wanting 

and wanting is not the same as needing 

but I feel all three towards you 

God, what I would give to be independent and self-assured

I am f*****g stupid 

and I know I am 
yet I can't stop myself from feeling 

And I only feel regret after I do it

instead of stopping myself from doing it in the first place

I am a fish, beached on the shore

kissing death with scaly lips

this poem is the taste of water filling the holes in my chest 

gasping for air 

or water? 

This poem is a redundant piece of s**t

If you don't understand umbrella metaphors

and s****y 4AM letters that you'll never see 

for as long as I live

Reviews

[Indra's Child]

Damn, I f*****g love your stuff, it's so different than most people.
Like that moment that the first person swore in Star Trek because it's on Netflix.
Different, and f*****g cool.

[Oliver Lee]

Thanks man, I love that

[Indra's Child]

boop boop for sure man