Oliver

I'm dysphoric

Oliver. Oliver, Oliver, Oli, not any other name. My name is Oliver. Oliver Lee. Lee is my middle name, and the name of my best friend. Why is it so hard for everyone? Why is it so hard to look like myself? Sound like myself? Be myself? Being who I am costs so much, takes so much, and it hurts too much to stop. To let it be. I am Oliver. I am him. I am he. I am a boy and nothing less. I am a man to full extent and even though sometimes I act gay, I'm emotionally literate and somehow that makes me more of a girl, because I like boys too. because sometimes I like to dress femme, that means I am automatically a girl. Because sometimes I wish I was born cisgendered and I never had a care, sometimes I wish my feelings didn't exist, sometimes I wish I didn't exist, but I do. I am not a girl. Why is it so hard to see? Is it because I have a D-cup, and not even my binder fixes that? Is it because I'm five foot one and I'm forced to wear female jeans because I'm so small? Why do I have to be "that lesbian" 

I am not a lesbian 

I am not a lesbian 

I am a boy

I like all genders 

I am a boy 

I wish I was a boy 

Why can't I be a boy 

I am Oliver

Nothing else 

Reviews

[Donna]

You know what you are to me Oliver? You are a person! It doesn't matter to me if you like girls or boys or whatever, your still a person. I just wish everybody thought the way I do. Hang in there!

[Oliver Lee]

you're a gorgeous person Donna, thank you! It really means a lot to me

[Glen Thompson]

Yass Oliver write that s**t